hope everything recently would reverse

Alright. This week isn't a pleasant week I've ever had, ever in my entire life pathetically. In between 4 days, I got some tough news. Well, hard to type this but, I lost 2 great men I've ever known and met. The first one is James Bartle, friend of mine in MP2 class. We've been known each other since I gone to Annapolis highschool. He's a nice person and smiley one. He has passed away on November 15, 2009 by car accident. I don't know what's any account of his accident lately. I was surprised when everyone just cried when I went MP2 and I found out, He's gone. I didn't really close to him, but one thing I know was he want to take a year off right after he graduate. Yeah. 3 months wasn't a long time to know somebody. But I know James was a very good person. Everybody sends their tears for him and that's make me recognize how lovable he is.

Then. It was surprising me either. Another man, who just did a great trigger of my life since my father passed away. He is my grandfather. That's might be a hardest thing I've done this year so far. Being left really behind to know what happen caused a humongous distance I had. November 17, 2009 19:00 pm, then back home was November 18, 2009 7:00am, my uncle text me from facebook, "De, Bapak ato (that's what I used to call him) udah gak ada tadi jam 6 pagi". Then I'm freeze. Something that right acrossed once on my mind and that's just happened. That's awful. I was felt very numb at the time. Then I told my hostparents. They were so surprised as I am. I tried to call home and talked to my grandmother and my aunt. I was just overwhelmed and you know how it feels when you really thousands miles away from your family and.... alright it was that bad.

Sometimes I feel that isn't unfair to let somebody in your life just passed away abruptly before you can at least say, "Goodbye!", "I love you!", or whatsoever. So many good times we've been for a long time. Really, I'm not ready being left of, will never. I just have to deal with my that's my bad side, because bad news never had good timing. Thank you for thy both to make my life more colorful and make me learn how to be loved, how to respect our own time, to do a good things because we just have a scant time.

*Dedicated for my Grandfather and also James Bartle. Rest in Peace, guys. Send my greetings to God and tell Him that you're always in my deep heart.

when i define love unlikely

Anyway people, I know it is a corny or even cheesy things I've ever written here. It's taken from my essay assignment in English class. I'm just want to share a thought about that corny stuff. Here you go, enjoy my words!

Love is an emotion when you would sacrifice anything you possess for something or somebody. love has no limitation. Whatever it takes, whenever it comes, the feeling is pretty similar. On my own thought, I would sacrifice anything could have for love as I think that make sense to be done. well, if we look what this term refers to be in narrow perspective, which means relationship between man and woman, boys and girls or kind of, then we're about fail to define this term.

For me, God is one thing to be loved and to be sacrificed . God is a greatest origin from whence the love derives and He also determines which something or somebody we love in. Frankly, I would give my most valued treasure for Him, yeah I'm trying. I still am. Have we conceived how much He gives his loves and graces to our as His slaves? We have to do a deep ponder before we answer that question.

If I have something I can give to Him, I do. I will do. How can you doubt to giving it when you recognize your breath and your own life now are His own belonging? Don't even answer it if you are'nt. Because love is not a gift, is about to give.

How was it? Okay maybe I'm an error-grammatical-author-ever, but you I'm here for learn and will never stop. Poke your eyes later guys!

homecoming dance

after the blast night before, i literally fatigue and yeaahh, i woke up at 11 o'clock, good huh? then i prepared for homecoming dance. take my shirt, my black jacket, my pants and my hostmom gave me my hostdad's black tie. when i'm fitting it up, i looked that was perfect. i'm ready. not yet.

I took a bathe as soon as after I had brunch because at 2 o'clock we had to headed to my hostbro's girlfriend they would go to party bus (limousine actually) after heading to grandma's house. Two o'clock came by, my hostbrother and I dressed up for homecoming dance though I had a long leisure time to staying home because homecoming dance would start at 7 pm. We looked sharp and ready for photoshoot. Ya, we took some pictures over my grandma's. Thanks for the compliment for those pictures. I'm so grateful is hosted by a great photography skill family (because sometimes I got to be an object (harshly) or model (literally)). haha

Alright then, I went to my hostbro's girlfriend (by the time I wrote it they've been separated) and guess what? My hostparents took a lot more picture there, literally a lot more than I had in previous photoshoot. I didn't envy though. Because I kept thinking that night going a blast night as Black Eyed Peas keep blabbering, I gotta the feeling too.

*ashamed*

Owkay. Photoshoot was over and time to get board on Party bus for my hostbro and her gf. That was the first time I saw a limousine or so emerged on my own eyes. Mmm but I don't get there though because some reasons. Story will be different after then.

We ride away to Heritage, about 3 miles away from my hostbro's gf home. Here, I got a new definition of 'Cold'. That was for real. Puncak's breezes nor class' air conditioner wasn't a quite equivalence what I got here. Might be terrible for me. Did I hate it? umm, not yet. People surrounding me keep panicking me away that the weather become lower and lower. I really do recognize it, much instead. But please, don't make it worse. I beg. Anyway, back to this place, we (minus hostbrother) got another photoshoot, at the same time we were waiting for my hostbro and his gf heading to Heritage Park with another Limo's rider, to took photoshoot either.

Their Limo (there's name of that car, but I can't remember - short term memory lost) has come as my photoshoot was over. I got right away to my car, but my hostparents. Then, someone's mother (then I called Lorraine's mom) said I have to get ride in Limo. I commended it right away and eureka.... I'm on the party bus.

Let's talk about it for a real quick. We went to Apple Bees for dinner at 5:00 pm then we heading to Annapolis for dance. yeaay!! Well, we arrived punctually there and got in a very long, hot and big line. Guess people, to got in the gym where we'' dance we took at least 45 minutes just to got in because a ton of people coming and simply two officers led the gate for people to registered. Huh.

Anywayyyssss, I got there and I'm alone, for the first 2 minutes in the gym. Then I hanging with my friends and start dancing. We got a blast. I'm not exaggerating. lol. It was relieving a lot from those worksheets, homework things, bad things I had before. Am I gonna miss it? I totally am.

After those dances. I wasn't about to go home yet. I went to my hostbro's fella home to watching super lame "paranormal activity" movie. Then the night was so fully of glad. If someone asks me for some more? No refuses at all I answer.

homecoming game

the big thing in the beginning of the year has just started, homecoming is in my way now. on second hour we got calling to go to gym for pep rally/assembly. that was so cool. we cheered and relished our time as a class member. Class of 2010 (senior) was very enthusiastic. then, i had voted for homecoming king and queen. there were 6 candidate king and queen, wearing best suit, dress and waving on the red carpet. All of students have to give a vote for king and queen for homecoming court 2009, right after pep rally done in our third hour.

third-sixth hour went by like common day, worksheet multiple boring. School dismissed, I went home to grandma's house which wasn't far away from my school. looking the clock ticking to 5:30, then I go. without skipped any dinner and those permissions from hostparents, I went to the parade. that was so freaking fun. despite we lost at the end and soaking wet from the sprinkled rain, blast at the night was so awful. Weeeww that was the great game i ever seen. Sniff u later with homecoming dance update.

picture of the day

-welcome to this jungle of the words-

apa kabar?

hello, just a couple minutes to the next day. i sit facing my laptop to turn out from my very straight saturday night. i'm not in the mood to share any happy story, and tears neither. well, i just want to say that i'm okay in here and staying cold because the weather coming lower. stuck in the lots lots lots of homework i should done this monday. no wonder i repine because in back home i'm not used to get (so much) worksheet like here. but that's consequences though, sacrifice something to get the better things is not a big deal, isn't it?

by the way, this monday i would have a spirit week. when all pupils at school will dress-up till homecoming dance on satruday night. i hope it will such a blast. i have no idea what i am going to wear next week, even i don't decide to dress-up yet. my school (i think also my state) is the latest who started school if i contrast to my another friend in different state. i started school on the first week on september, whereas another student has begun their school might be two weeks or one week earlier. so, no wonder if all of the events, such as homecoming, prom, etc in my school is starting so last year than another school here.

okay i will drive my steer to the school life here. don't ever think all of the school here is totally such a heaven school like you seen in a bunch of movie back there. its completely different, dude. my school was so strict, even more strict than my school back home, though i don't have to wear any kind of uniform, belt, hat etc here. fortunately, that's not a big odd here, my "value" was worked practically.

then friends. i need a little bit more definition about it. friends who can say "hi!" to you every single morning? friends where you can hangout with? friends when you told them you're foreigner they say "cool!"? or what? frankly, i don't have any close friends. tell me i just trying to figure out my safe-zone (i'm not suppose to), or i'm just expecting about anything here. it's been two months since i came here and it's been a month since begun to school. yaay i am pretty ridiculous to confess any such retarded things here, but at least it could be my motivation. pray for me folks! for the all little confession i just want to say, i'm happy, i'm tough, and i have to show my effort, more...more...more....

at the bottom of this page, i just want to say sorry about my friend Utha, who row in a died two days ago. though i''m just know you for a second, i know you're such a good and lovable person. i send a deeply condolences to what happened about. have a nice flight to heaven, buddy!

best regards,

awesomeness come!

Saturday Morning

"pumpkin, as big as ball, as orange as fall. "

"pick me some hiding-pineapples, mom!"

"colorish flower, seems smile if better"

"sit in the row, i know you scarecrow"

"just envy the color, don't dare to taste any bites"

"playing for me at least a tune"

"my mini-me comes back and give me any sweets"

"i know, ladybug is the best insect ever"

"a lot of stacks, a lot of bottles, zero drunk"

"give s'more places. downtown"

Place(s) : Eastern Market and Downtown Detroit.
Photographs by : Arief Budiman